Manifestation Madness.
I’m going to share with you what I’ve uncovered about manifestation at its core. Shift your energy they say. Visualize what you want until you feel it they say. Create a vision board they say. Move your body to raise your vibration! they say. Trust the Universe!
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not knocking any of this, but in looking back at my life I realized something interesting about manifesting; manifesting doesn’t necessarily have to involve any of these. Manifestation also happens when the Universe detects determined intentions backed by actions and heightened emotions - whether fear, survival, desperation, or desire.
You see, the Universe doesn’t discern whether the vibes behind your intention, unrelenting determination, and frantic search to find a place to live is fueled by fear, desperation, or joyful desire - it simply responds to the intensity and consistency of the energy you’re putting out. Of course, manifestation feels a hell of a lot better when fueled by desire vs. HOLY SHIT I CAN’T PAY MY RENT THIS MONTH AND DON’T WANT TO LIVE IN MY 1992 CHEVY IMPALA SO I BETTER GET MY ASS IN GEAR LIKE NOWWWEEE!
And trusting the Universe? It definitely wasn’t part of my no strategy, strategy to get my life together.
Let me explain…
There was a time in my life when I lost everything. I mean everything - home, car, job. All of it gone. The last thing on my mind was putting together a cute little vision board, dancing across my non-existent living room to “raise my vibe”, or sitting down in meditation to drum up the feeling of having all of my bills paid, a new car, job, place to live, and getting my self-esteem back. I was in survival mode. My energy was sending out a WTF AM I GOING TO DO NOW FOR F*CKS SAKE! signal to the Universe; otherwise described as panic, fear, and desperation with a sour sprinkle of victimhood on top.
So the Universe (that I didn’t particularly trust at the time) picked it up and got excited. Hey, check out this chick’s vibe - she’s determined AF to find a place to live! And just feel all the emotion she’s packing!
I remember coming across the perfect little house for rent. At the time I had approximately $-20 in my bank account, no money available to borrow, a credit score lower than my 7th grade teacher’s tolerance for children, and a job I’d been at less than a month.
But in spite of it all, fueled by sheer determination and desperation, I marched with fake confidence over to the house I had my eye on to speak with the realtor taking applications that day. I filled out the application knowing the outcome should be equivalent to planning on winning the lottery without buying a ticket.
I recall her looking at me and with a how do I break this to her cadence in her voice, saying “Well, there are a few issues with your application”.
I knew there was another person eager to rent it who, undoubtedly, was in much better shape than me, but I pushed on. Let me tell you my story, I said. She patiently listened, and after a brief moment of reflection said “I think the landlord will like you.”
The place was mine. It made zero sense.
After that I manifested a car and a better job. None of which had anything to do with me envisioning success until I felt it, or raising my vibration. Instead, my manifestations had everything to do with repeatedly taking courageous, determined action out of sheer desperation (and a little desire) to create a better life for myself.
If it feels like your life is in the proverbial toilet, I have a message of hope for you - grab onto the sides of the bowl, pull yourself up like the manifesting boss of your life that you are, and reach for the next best thing with courage and determination, then watch in amazement as the Universe responds.
Oh, and stop asking about the how, why, when, and what - just follow the next best thing and do it, even if it doesn’t make sense.